Wow Yourself, That's All That Matters

I have found it fairly easy to move forward and virtually forget about my high school years.  Those years spent changing schools, packing up all of my stuff, saying goodbye... it felt so routine and without a lot of emotional turmoil that leaving "home" for college couldn't have been an easier step for me to take.  And now, with all the time that has passed me by, high school has become a faded memory that I only have a mere moment's worth of a reminder when someone's birthday comes around the corner or when I hear about homecoming during this time of year.  And I have this vision of a homecoming football game: the coach yelling, cheerleaders jumping, spectators and fans screaming from the bleachers... that was a time when winning that game meant more than anything.

My place in all of the excitement... was as a fan.  I sat on the sidelines and watched all of the craziness.  This could have very possibly been my first clue that I was a quiet introvert, and very much my first step in figuring myself out.  That is a journey that I still don't believe is complete.  I mean, here I am 10 years later and I am still trying to make sense of all the craziness that I see, hear, and experience... and sometimes, get thrown into.  And at times I still feel my head spinning... and what happens when your head spins for too long, you lose your balance and fall down.  I have to reassure myself that I can pick myself back up again and keep pushing, motivating, and inspiring myself... keeping my eyes open...

I won't allow myself to forget the drive, passion, and love I have to keep myself going no matter how much these things seem to work against me.  With a wish, a hope, a prayer, a dream... a dream where everything can be so much simpler, easier, and within fingertip's reach, but always more than an arm length away.  Attaining victory is always and will always be the most invigorating feeling, and nothing can surpass that.  My victory is to attain all the teeny goals I set in front of myself, and the ability to look behind myself afterwords and say wow.