Big goals, small woman

 

 

#Reverb10 is a blogging initiative that provides prompts each day of the 31 days of December with the intent of reflecting on the past year, specifically 2010, and looking forward to what’s to come in the year ahead.

 

The Prompt(s)

Lesson Learned. What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward?

 

I've learned a lot about myself, and am always learning new things as I come into different situations and meet interesting and colorful people.  I've definitely learned how far my patience can be stretched...so thin that it's 100% transparent and can burst at any moment.  And I've learned at how well I keep it together without losing my composure.  Of course, afterward I have an overwhelming need to scream.  

Maybe I'm just reminded of this because of busy season number two.  The first busy season is in the fall for back-to-school, and then in the winter for Christmas shopping, which is where I am now.  I almost can't wait for the season to be over.  Although, I would like to be able to enjoy the winter season...it's so beautiful.  The snow falls, lights twinkling, soft music plays... wrapping Christmas gifts, curling up in a thermal blanket, and drinking tea and hot cocoa.  I do believe that I will be needing a long weekend off after the season is over.

 

I keep stretching myself so thin that I haven't found the time to put up my Christmas tree.  And I have this short term goal of putting my Christmas tree together and decorated pre-Christmas.  The time went by so quickly between Thanksgiving and now.  And I know that it will be that way over the next few weeks.

 

In the new year, I will be taking everything I learned about my temper's fuse, my ability to hold my composure--regardless of how fast or hard my heart beats at severe irritation and frustration--and know that there is always room for improvement.  And it isn't just about understanding when and how to be calm and patient, but more importantly about not getting to that point.  

 

Each year begins anew in some way.  It can be a new beginning, a fresh start, and a promise to less being more.  There are millions of resolutions made during the new year, and this could easy be made into some big goal that although I have the intention and it's in my heart...over the course of the year, resolutions and promises become foggy and disappear...out of sight, out of mind.

 

So I don't want to make a big goal for myself... I will keep the lesson with me that I can scream or cry if I need to instead of bottling it up day after day...I can sleep longer hours as I need them...it's more important to be refreshed and rejuvenated.  And the rest will follow...soothing demeanor, and a strong presence.